Grattitude Changes Everything.

What a night.

I don't normally celebrate New Year's Eve, aside from the familial champagne toasting at midnight, but this year, I wanted to do something different.

My best friend Caroline is back in Alaska and we decided to have ourselves a rager. Well, as much a rager as two homeschool girls can afford!

As our night was settling down, we found ourselves in the steamy hot tub, resting our weary dancing bodies and having that classic tipsy talk.

It was during said talk that the question of New Year's resolutions came up.

I was stumped, and it wasn't just the alcohol. I was never one to have that "new year, new me" type of attitude, but I knew I wanted something to work on, something to look forward to and change my perspective on.

Not wanting to think too hard into it, I set the thought aside to let it simmer and it wasn't until I was changing out of my bathing suit that I noticed a saying on my vanity that rang real and true.

Grattitude Changes Everything.

That was it.

If there's one thing I've been trying to work on, it's my perspective on the present. For a long while, I couldn't appreciate where I was and what I was doing because I kept comparing it to this preconceived idea of how I should be living my life.

Like being in a relationship, living in a big city, being independent, going out, having a "real" job. I continuously made myself feel not good enough, focusing more on the negatives of my current situation instead of looking at the positives.

There's a quote in Rupi Kaur's new book, the sun and her flowers that reiterates the saying that gratitude is where the satisfaction lives.

you have so much but are always hungry for more. stop looking up at everything you don't have and look around at everything you do have.

Life becomes so much more vibrant and colorful when you start appreciating everything you have: like a healthy happy body, a safe home, a loving family, a confident attitude, an opportunity of a lifetime to a be a part of starting a family business, and an adorable cat that cuddles with you every night.

I want 2018 to be a continuation of this mindset and mentality because truly, life is so good. Obsessing over all that you haven't yet attained, comparing your chapter of life to someone else's, and focusing all of your energies on what isn't will never leave you satisfied and happy. Look instead at all the little things in your life that have all added up to who you are and be grateful.

2018, let's make this a good one. 

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Wouldn’t Have It Any Other Way.

"You'll be here for Christmas. I won't have it any other way."

My mom said that to me once, probably when I was being salty and saying I would never come home for Christmas again, being an adult and all.

Her response not only resonated with me, but it instilled the value of being with family for the holidays.

Guess it didn't matter to her where I was in the world, what I was doing, or who I was dating (ha.ha.ha.). It just meant that at Christmas, without question, I would be returning home.

Oh the strength of family!

This year at the Krull Kastle was a quiet one. No sleighs approached our port cochere, no visitors came calling, no carol singers graced our front porch, and no guests took delight in our traditional wanton feast on Christmas Eve.

It was quiet, for sure, but it worked out pretty well.

Mom didn't have to clean the house (like in all her spare time?) and for once, we got each other's company all to ourselves, something we'd all been missing (even if we weren't eager to admit it).

Christmas, to me, has always been about family. Sure, I love gingerly opening up a cat-wrapped present to find something thoughtful from one of my family members. I always look forward to seeing the expressions on my family's face when they open something I gave them, and my camera is always ready whenever Fudge decides to play with all the ribbon and bows. But the most memorable part of Christmas, always, is being surrounded by those I love most.

Sure, sometimes we banter, and we've definitely fought over who's turn it is to make a "special" hot chocolate, but in the end, we always end up laughing about it, forgiving each other and settling down on the couch together.

I think the Grinch sums up the gift of Christmas best: what if Christmas, he thought, doesn’t come from a store. What if Christmas...perhaps...means a little bit more?

While it was quieter in our house this year, it was most fitting and cozy, and I was home with the family, which was the best present of all.  

I certainly wouldn't have it any other way.

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